i blinked and almost a year passed by without an update...


honestly, 2020 so far can be summed up in one word: awkward. every day is the new normal. neverending period of adjustment I hate to relive as if it's groundhog day. anyone feels the same? despite everything, it's been alright. sure the global pandemic hasn't been easy on most people, i     included. but I guess if anything, i shall look for the silver lining... if there's any...


so yeah, here are some updates from january to mid-august from yours truly, who felt like running out of love from blogging yet still wanting to buy new theme(s) and/or switching to squarespace. oh, the neverending struggle.


Life So Far

8/17/2020

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i blinked and almost a year passed by without an update...


honestly, 2020 so far can be summed up in one word: awkward. every day is the new normal. neverending period of adjustment I hate to relive as if it's groundhog day. anyone feels the same? despite everything, it's been alright. sure the global pandemic hasn't been easy on most people, i     included. but I guess if anything, i shall look for the silver lining... if there's any...


so yeah, here are some updates from january to mid-august from yours truly, who felt like running out of love from blogging yet still wanting to buy new theme(s) and/or switching to squarespace. oh, the neverending struggle.



How is it already August? Time went too fast and we're past the eighth month of the year. Wow. To be honest, nothing major happening this month but there was one concert I look forward to the most: TVXQ's! So this month's recap would be a word vomit about how I finally am able to witness them live!

I went back to my previous team after a short stint at the global team and honestly, everything went too slow for my liking. But I also took the opportunity to slow down after weeks of chaotic daily deadlines. It felt nice. I think the change refreshed me, which is important for my work. I also took a day off just to rest at home. I think I deserved that.

Truth be told though, nowadays I am suffering from a bad case of questioning myself. Whether my work quality has improved or not, seeing the assessment have been far from my liking. Am I that bad? What can I improve? All narrowed down to the point of wanting to resign so that the office would find a better worker. But I guess, as long as there's no direct complaint then my work should be okay. But seriously, though. Probably I should've asked for honest review face to face.

Last two weeks of August were fun due to two thing: Independence Day Celebration at work and TVXQ Concert -CIRCLE- #with!

I took part in celebration games with charades and despite my brain stopped working in the beginning to explain the rules of games, my coworkers were very patient with my demonstration and I feel super thankful. It can be so hard when your tongue dies in the middle of the sentence despite the overload information you want to say. But they have been very accommodating and everything went smoothly to the end. We also had a night karaoke session which I had too much fun with!


And came the day of TVXQ concert on August 31st! It was amazing and I got a pretty lovely spot next to the extended stage. They sang some of their greatest hits and several new songs. We jammed so hard to the end —which is why I didn't take many photos. Too busy jamming! Though the audience wasn't that much, they still performed so well as if it's a stadium level. I was awed and amazed. I managed to get a signed ball T_T #soblessed (full story and video is on instagram!).

Honestly, even by the time I am typing all of this, it still hasn't felt so much real. I felt like I was dreaming the best dream in my life because it was too good to be true. But it was real! Everything was so sweetly real! And I finally met a lot of friends I made in the decade of stanning them. They've always been the core of my universe. And to be able to meet them, this time in their concert, made me feel super sappy. Everything (finally) was alright with the world.


September came. I will try to improve my work quality and try to save up harder. There were a lot of misfortunes that gave quite a damage to my finance so far and I hope I could start making some progress with my savings. I haven't feel adulting done right in that part :( also, on September there will be a bazaar event in City Hall which I look forward. Can't wait!

How has your August been? Tell me stories. I would like to know x

August Rush

9/08/2019

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How is it already August? Time went too fast and we're past the eighth month of the year. Wow. To be honest, nothing major happening this month but there was one concert I look forward to the most: TVXQ's! So this month's recap would be a word vomit about how I finally am able to witness them live!

I went back to my previous team after a short stint at the global team and honestly, everything went too slow for my liking. But I also took the opportunity to slow down after weeks of chaotic daily deadlines. It felt nice. I think the change refreshed me, which is important for my work. I also took a day off just to rest at home. I think I deserved that.

Truth be told though, nowadays I am suffering from a bad case of questioning myself. Whether my work quality has improved or not, seeing the assessment have been far from my liking. Am I that bad? What can I improve? All narrowed down to the point of wanting to resign so that the office would find a better worker. But I guess, as long as there's no direct complaint then my work should be okay. But seriously, though. Probably I should've asked for honest review face to face.

Last two weeks of August were fun due to two thing: Independence Day Celebration at work and TVXQ Concert -CIRCLE- #with!

I took part in celebration games with charades and despite my brain stopped working in the beginning to explain the rules of games, my coworkers were very patient with my demonstration and I feel super thankful. It can be so hard when your tongue dies in the middle of the sentence despite the overload information you want to say. But they have been very accommodating and everything went smoothly to the end. We also had a night karaoke session which I had too much fun with!


And came the day of TVXQ concert on August 31st! It was amazing and I got a pretty lovely spot next to the extended stage. They sang some of their greatest hits and several new songs. We jammed so hard to the end —which is why I didn't take many photos. Too busy jamming! Though the audience wasn't that much, they still performed so well as if it's a stadium level. I was awed and amazed. I managed to get a signed ball T_T #soblessed (full story and video is on instagram!).

Honestly, even by the time I am typing all of this, it still hasn't felt so much real. I felt like I was dreaming the best dream in my life because it was too good to be true. But it was real! Everything was so sweetly real! And I finally met a lot of friends I made in the decade of stanning them. They've always been the core of my universe. And to be able to meet them, this time in their concert, made me feel super sappy. Everything (finally) was alright with the world.


September came. I will try to improve my work quality and try to save up harder. There were a lot of misfortunes that gave quite a damage to my finance so far and I hope I could start making some progress with my savings. I haven't feel adulting done right in that part :( also, on September there will be a bazaar event in City Hall which I look forward. Can't wait!

How has your August been? Tell me stories. I would like to know x

Hello. We're halfway through 2019 now (cue cold sweats). How has July been for you? To me, it's somewhat chaotic. The work seemed endless, little personal hardships here and there. But as always there's a little delight I found here and there. Again, trying to take it easy because I always think I have too much on my plate. Maybe not. Maybe I am just easily overwhelmed nowadays.


I started the month by watching the long-anticipated Spider-man: Far from Home which exceeded all expectations. I always love Sony's new approach with Tom Holland's Spidey and make it a teenage coming-of-age movie with a touch of a superhero. I love this one far better than Homecoming because of personal reasons hehe. I also managed to watch the winner of Cannes' Palme d'Or, Parasite from South Korea. It's amazing and the twists, which are to be expected from the title, actually came unexpectedly. Really love the whole Asian household struggle and it quite hits home in some aspects. The ending made me icky in a good way and honestly, I can't recommend it enough.

A very lovely surprise came mid-month: my favorite group, TVXQ, is coming to town late August! So excited! Truth be told, I have given up any hope of watching their concert unless I go to Korea and/or Japan (last time I watched them was at a joint concert in 2012). But they are going to come! I'm glad!

I also managed to sneak in a moment to watch Avengers Endgame Extended, which was a little not worth it though I am loving the Stan Lee Tribute. But honestly, nothing new. Might as well skip it.

So the category I wanted for the TVXQ concert was sold out in less than a minute when the sales opened and I was heartbroken. I was heavily unsure if my leg could withstand long hours of standing (because it even hurts to stand for too long in the bus right now) so I persisted to wait in case a new batch opens. Newsflash: it didn't. So I relegated and chose a standing ticket in the center. I really have no excuses to delay the checkup now.

I also ended my temporary stint in the global department by the end of the month. I never felt I learned so much in such a short span of time. I learned a lot about management be it in time and working, increased productivity, speaking —from all those webcam meetings. Also, the hidden power that Google Sheets hold. Wow.

In case you didn't notice, I failed to post my half-year movie review. I really was meaning to post it before August starts, but of course, I couldn't. But!!! It's live now!!! Come give it some lovin'!!!

Something I've been meaning to post is a little roundup of me being a little tourist in the city. Nothing much, probably just more photos than text. You could expect that in the coming weeks.

I didn't want to expect much this August because I somehow can sense the personal impending doom. Again, trying to take it slow. But I do have some watchlist to tick off and maybe a short trip to museums and open spaces so that I don't feel too bummed out. We'll see.

How was your July?

And July

8/10/2019

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Hello. We're halfway through 2019 now (cue cold sweats). How has July been for you? To me, it's somewhat chaotic. The work seemed endless, little personal hardships here and there. But as always there's a little delight I found here and there. Again, trying to take it easy because I always think I have too much on my plate. Maybe not. Maybe I am just easily overwhelmed nowadays.


I started the month by watching the long-anticipated Spider-man: Far from Home which exceeded all expectations. I always love Sony's new approach with Tom Holland's Spidey and make it a teenage coming-of-age movie with a touch of a superhero. I love this one far better than Homecoming because of personal reasons hehe. I also managed to watch the winner of Cannes' Palme d'Or, Parasite from South Korea. It's amazing and the twists, which are to be expected from the title, actually came unexpectedly. Really love the whole Asian household struggle and it quite hits home in some aspects. The ending made me icky in a good way and honestly, I can't recommend it enough.

A very lovely surprise came mid-month: my favorite group, TVXQ, is coming to town late August! So excited! Truth be told, I have given up any hope of watching their concert unless I go to Korea and/or Japan (last time I watched them was at a joint concert in 2012). But they are going to come! I'm glad!

I also managed to sneak in a moment to watch Avengers Endgame Extended, which was a little not worth it though I am loving the Stan Lee Tribute. But honestly, nothing new. Might as well skip it.

So the category I wanted for the TVXQ concert was sold out in less than a minute when the sales opened and I was heartbroken. I was heavily unsure if my leg could withstand long hours of standing (because it even hurts to stand for too long in the bus right now) so I persisted to wait in case a new batch opens. Newsflash: it didn't. So I relegated and chose a standing ticket in the center. I really have no excuses to delay the checkup now.

I also ended my temporary stint in the global department by the end of the month. I never felt I learned so much in such a short span of time. I learned a lot about management be it in time and working, increased productivity, speaking —from all those webcam meetings. Also, the hidden power that Google Sheets hold. Wow.

In case you didn't notice, I failed to post my half-year movie review. I really was meaning to post it before August starts, but of course, I couldn't. But!!! It's live now!!! Come give it some lovin'!!!

Something I've been meaning to post is a little roundup of me being a little tourist in the city. Nothing much, probably just more photos than text. You could expect that in the coming weeks.

I didn't want to expect much this August because I somehow can sense the personal impending doom. Again, trying to take it slow. But I do have some watchlist to tick off and maybe a short trip to museums and open spaces so that I don't feel too bummed out. We'll see.

How was your July?

The first half of the year saw me still into blockbuster movies yet trying to break out with watching only one Indonesian movie. I am still on never-ending adjustment period but it was pretty bearable now — except for the hellhole that was February. Nevertheless, I had fun! I learned that underestimating things can reward you in the sweetest way possible. Also, some closure feels better than the rest. Here are the movies I watched in the first half of 2019.


2019 Movies Reviewed, First Half

8/03/2019


The first half of the year saw me still into blockbuster movies yet trying to break out with watching only one Indonesian movie. I am still on never-ending adjustment period but it was pretty bearable now — except for the hellhole that was February. Nevertheless, I had fun! I learned that underestimating things can reward you in the sweetest way possible. Also, some closure feels better than the rest. Here are the movies I watched in the first half of 2019.



June was a bit overwhelming. Ied Holiday which resulted in a week-long break from the office. Minor accident on the way to work. Got bangs. Went to another walking trip. Just feeling more tired than usual but all is good and fine. Anyone felt that June was unusually long?

Ied Holiday break arrived earlier this month. A well-needed break in which I fully used to, what else, sleep. The family gathering was a bit emotional this year due to personal circumstances. But it went fine. No photos because, though I did my loveliest makeup that day, I always relegated to do the dishes #AsianWomanHouseholdProblem

Funny story: I moved to a new global department this month and it involves a lot of webcam meetings. That's when I noticed my forehead is criminally wide -_- So by the next weekend, I ran to a hair salon to get bangs and little trim. I felt so much better and less insecure during meetings now haha

I had a minor accident on my way to work. One morning, I took a bus and I have to go down the stairs of the pedestrian overpass. I took a misstep and sprained my foot. It hurts like hell but I am grateful so many people helped me to get to the office. I had it massaged later that afternoon then soak it in warm water and salt, and the pain subsided by the next day. It still hurts to this day but only if I put it on a funny angle. I shall get it re-checked soon if only I'm not so busy!


I went to another walking tour by JKT Good Guide in collaboration with Semasa Piknik event during the capital city's anniversary. The tour was around Lapangan Banteng which was pretty similar to the previous tour I joined with Seratus Persen Manusia. It was pretty exhausting but super lovely since it was held in the afternoon to nighttime. Jakarta is indeed magical in the golden hour.


I went on a shopping spree because Uniqlo released another manga UT which features... Detective Conan! I, a Conan enthusiast went straight away and bought three tees. I am happy because the details are subtle enough that I can use every day without looking too merchandise-y but also clear enough for other enthusiasts to see.

Somehow it slipped my mind that I watched Aladdin by the end of May, so there's that. On June I only managed to watch the long-anticipated X-Men: Dark Phoenix. it's not disappointing but I can see why people aren't satisfied with it. a lot of things built to a great momentum only to fell flat. But I personally think that fighting sequence before the final one is looking great, almost MCU-like. Fassbender always owns his Magneto hard and it's nice to see younger ones stepping up to their role. I think this was far better than the mess that was X-3.

I also went to one wedding by the end of June. I was considering to buy a new dress but knowing the venue was too far from home and I would want to easily move here and there while still looking pretty, I declined. I wore the exact same top and pants from one April wedding and threw over a long kimono just to spice things up. I didn't regret it but I think I need to re-evaluate my formal/party wardrobe.

How was your June like? 2019 second half, here we go!

Into June

7/15/2019

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June was a bit overwhelming. Ied Holiday which resulted in a week-long break from the office. Minor accident on the way to work. Got bangs. Went to another walking trip. Just feeling more tired than usual but all is good and fine. Anyone felt that June was unusually long?

Ied Holiday break arrived earlier this month. A well-needed break in which I fully used to, what else, sleep. The family gathering was a bit emotional this year due to personal circumstances. But it went fine. No photos because, though I did my loveliest makeup that day, I always relegated to do the dishes #AsianWomanHouseholdProblem

Funny story: I moved to a new global department this month and it involves a lot of webcam meetings. That's when I noticed my forehead is criminally wide -_- So by the next weekend, I ran to a hair salon to get bangs and little trim. I felt so much better and less insecure during meetings now haha

I had a minor accident on my way to work. One morning, I took a bus and I have to go down the stairs of the pedestrian overpass. I took a misstep and sprained my foot. It hurts like hell but I am grateful so many people helped me to get to the office. I had it massaged later that afternoon then soak it in warm water and salt, and the pain subsided by the next day. It still hurts to this day but only if I put it on a funny angle. I shall get it re-checked soon if only I'm not so busy!


I went to another walking tour by JKT Good Guide in collaboration with Semasa Piknik event during the capital city's anniversary. The tour was around Lapangan Banteng which was pretty similar to the previous tour I joined with Seratus Persen Manusia. It was pretty exhausting but super lovely since it was held in the afternoon to nighttime. Jakarta is indeed magical in the golden hour.


I went on a shopping spree because Uniqlo released another manga UT which features... Detective Conan! I, a Conan enthusiast went straight away and bought three tees. I am happy because the details are subtle enough that I can use every day without looking too merchandise-y but also clear enough for other enthusiasts to see.

Somehow it slipped my mind that I watched Aladdin by the end of May, so there's that. On June I only managed to watch the long-anticipated X-Men: Dark Phoenix. it's not disappointing but I can see why people aren't satisfied with it. a lot of things built to a great momentum only to fell flat. But I personally think that fighting sequence before the final one is looking great, almost MCU-like. Fassbender always owns his Magneto hard and it's nice to see younger ones stepping up to their role. I think this was far better than the mess that was X-3.

I also went to one wedding by the end of June. I was considering to buy a new dress but knowing the venue was too far from home and I would want to easily move here and there while still looking pretty, I declined. I wore the exact same top and pants from one April wedding and threw over a long kimono just to spice things up. I didn't regret it but I think I need to re-evaluate my formal/party wardrobe.

How was your June like? 2019 second half, here we go!
A Wordsmith.